family is here for the weekend.
my anxiety level is consistently hovering between a 7 and 9.
there is not time to be alone.
they are asking questions about what i'm doing after graduation.
they are forgetting to ask me to spend time with them.
i have to babysit my little brother.
i have to babysit my grandparents.
i do not want to live at home this summer; i need to save money.
never did call him.

things are very hard right now, it seems.
and i know this transition is hard for everyone.
i just have a few other ones to make at the same time, and it's so hard to let go. of people, of habits, of places, of things. of ideas and feelings.
i am scared, always.

(you love everything i'm not//where am i supposed to go when you're gone)

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