22.9.10

switch

i am constantly embarrassed






i want to quit school i want to quit school i want to quit school i want to quit school just two more semesters just two more and it's done i want to quit school i want to quit school





(it wasn't my fault!)

19.9.10

listen.

i think i'd rather love someone unrequitedly than have someone else unrequitedly love me.


also, i hate people who, in conversation, are not listening, but waiting for their turn to talk some more.

13.9.10

sore

woke up at exactly five this morning, coughing.
felt angry at my body; i don't have time to get sick.

i know i shouldn't be mad at the poor thing, though. it's getting attacked from the inside. what it needs now is love, instead, but i can't help but feel bitter when its defenses fail and i am stuck finding the softest foods in the pantry because it hurts to swallow.

(my journal has been keeping track of themes in my life, it seems.
last week was money, the economy, and attractiveness.
all the weeks before were loneliness.)

4.9.10

-sickness

i want to be back in my apartment.
now.