please don't tell me i can't.
it's not a good enough reason.
i will starve, i will not buy any new clothes, i will not update electronics, i will not have cable, i will not use much electricity, i will go outside instead of to a gym, i will go to the library instead of bookstores, i will work a lot, i will actually try to get gigs, i will do whatever it takes for me to be able to love what i am doing.
because that's far more important, right now, than anything else.
i know what it is to wear myself out, and i am not afraid to do it in pursuit of love.
(also, now that i'm thinking about it, the lack of consumerism would actually be quite good for me, and most likely more sustainable than how i'm living. i might as well cut down on consumption anyway.)