i don't know what i want.
it kills me, a little. i wish i had a plan. i wish i could make a to do list for this. i wish i had everything figured out.
but i am a human being, you know?
and it just doesn't work like that.
life throws wrenches in the cogs, gives you surprises that can either be wonderful or devastating.
i'm not sure if i know how to deal with things properly, sometimes.
i want to curl up and sleep forever, but at the same time i want to live every day with everything in me.
i am scared and ready.
everything i can do needs to become everything i am doing.
i do not want to be wasted potential.