i need to find someone who will let me hold their hand for a little while.
and maybe rest my head on their chest.
it would help me breathe easier.
(i began rubbing my hands together in a pressured frenzy today, unable to relieve the tension fast enough. what i need to do now is touch someone else. their hands, their back. i need to do to them what i need done to me, to vicariously ease all of this in me. i need someone to touch.)