i am not ready for this.
i realized tonight that there is a large part of me here. something about fate is putting me here, in this place, with these people. i don't know what it is, but i know that enough of my past, a good deal of my present, and something in my future belongs here. i am in love with this place in a way. i don't really want to leave, even though i'll be so close.
i'll be okay. i just have nerves.
but oh how i will miss you.