again, again.

there's nothing here for me anymore.

i am so attached to everyone and everything, but honestly...it was never what it needed to really be, this high school experience. there were too many misunderstandings, too many things that were hidden, too many things i shouldn't have said. too many changes.

i am moving and i am glad. i am moving away from so many things, but in all honesty, i am just moving on. onwards and upwards. if i lose you, i am sorry. but...fate does what it does. and i will try to keep you. i am going to try to keep you so much.

but you have to help me.

[i threw my head back to scream
and no sound came out;
my throat was stuck.]

i can't tell you my dreams because i'm too embarrassed,
but sometimes,
i get close.

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